FML

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This CRT (Cornea Refractive Therapy) business is driving me crazy.

After visiting the eye doctor for a followup and probably finally solving my problems of why it's been very uncomfortable for me to put my lenses in, the worst part is still my mom yelling at me (and my dad) for being such idiots and not asking the doctor every single question that was on her mind, saying that without her earlier phone call we'd never have gotten our problems sorted out (totally not true), criticizing me for not being able to put on contacts and not being able to figure out anything by myself, gosh how am I ever going to live on my own...

I. Am. Sick. Of. This.

I am sick of being told that everything is my fault. I am sick of being treated like an idiot. I make mistakes. Who doesn't? But every time I slip up on something like how to freaking put on contacts (Jesus Christ, it's my first time sticking things into my eyes and it's not like I lost the family fortune in the stock market), I'm scolded like there's no tomorrow.

It makes me wonder about my own psychology sometimes. I'm criticized for making mistakes, and I'm criticized for not taking any initiatives, and I'm criticized for "not being able to figure things out." Is it any wonder that sometimes I'm too terrified to do anything?

Comments

[yuanfang.livejournal.com]

Hey, I've been using CRT for a very long time now! It's definitely uncomfortable at first, but you really get used to it (I know it's bad, but sometimes I stay up at night with them in and read or something, oops!).

Maybe they just missed you during the school year and are trying to make up for it now in their weird parent-ish ways?

I actually had been having similar problems with my parents lately, but it mostly related to school work. What ended up doing it for me (after many attempts and some tears) was just asking them to give me a little space and just trust me sometimes. If I make mistakes, I'll take the consequences and it won't affect them much (if at all), right? I'll ask for your help if I need it, but c'mon parents, I'm old now (and you're even older!).

I think you should trust in yourself (cheesy as that sounds), because that's how you'll learn best. It's hard (it took me years, derp), but learn to shrug off what people say if it seems unreasonable.

[yoinokaku.livejournal.com]

Heh, I'm still trying. I still have a long ways to go in terms of de-sensitizing myself. Thanks for the advice, though :)

Actually, the weirdest thing I'm finding right now is that while my right eye's vision improved rapidly, my left eye is lagging so much behind that my overall vision is a bit bizarre--I'm now like -1 and -3. The doctor said my left eye is just taking much longer to adapt, but right now it's just the weirdest thing ever.