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Updates from coronavirusland
Jun. 8th, 2020 05:36 pmHonestly, it feels like time has lost all meaning since the pandemic happened and I started working from home.
Previously, I stated that I'd wanted to finish my revisions in March or so. The pandemic happened, I've been experiencing high levels of anxiety and stress for months, and due to either that or working on my MS for too long or a combination of both, I burned out and took a break (and played a lot of Animal Crossing).
This past weekend, I cracked open my MS for the first time since then. I identified a bunch of issues to fix, but mostly small issues, even though I'd wanted to evaluate my MS on more of a big picture level.
Because that's my biggest issue: I don't know if my MS is ready to resubmit to the agent.
The ideas the agent had given me all involved rewriting the manuscript, even though they technically didn't ask me to rewrite it, but I didn't do that—I tried a few avenues, but none of those drafts felt like they were working for me. So part of me is paralyzed with anxiety that I haven't revised it enough and sending it back now would lead to the agent being disappointed.
But what is the point at which the book has been rewritten enough to fulfill their expectations? That's really hard for me to figure out.
Throw in additional anxiety that I've taken too long already (even though, if I had rewritten the book, I think it's not unreasonable to assume it might take me a year?) and honestly, I feel like R&Rs are more anxiety-inducing than the querying stage.
In any case, I do want to wrap this up, though. I'm tentatively going to plan to finish the edits I know are necessary and make a decision about my next step by the end of this month.
Sigh.
Previously, I stated that I'd wanted to finish my revisions in March or so. The pandemic happened, I've been experiencing high levels of anxiety and stress for months, and due to either that or working on my MS for too long or a combination of both, I burned out and took a break (and played a lot of Animal Crossing).
This past weekend, I cracked open my MS for the first time since then. I identified a bunch of issues to fix, but mostly small issues, even though I'd wanted to evaluate my MS on more of a big picture level.
Because that's my biggest issue: I don't know if my MS is ready to resubmit to the agent.
The ideas the agent had given me all involved rewriting the manuscript, even though they technically didn't ask me to rewrite it, but I didn't do that—I tried a few avenues, but none of those drafts felt like they were working for me. So part of me is paralyzed with anxiety that I haven't revised it enough and sending it back now would lead to the agent being disappointed.
But what is the point at which the book has been rewritten enough to fulfill their expectations? That's really hard for me to figure out.
Throw in additional anxiety that I've taken too long already (even though, if I had rewritten the book, I think it's not unreasonable to assume it might take me a year?) and honestly, I feel like R&Rs are more anxiety-inducing than the querying stage.
In any case, I do want to wrap this up, though. I'm tentatively going to plan to finish the edits I know are necessary and make a decision about my next step by the end of this month.
Sigh.
