Depression New Year...again
Jan. 7th, 2026 10:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rainwatersparkIt's funny; I looked back at my old blog posts and apparently I felt exactly the same way today as I did a whole year ago. Not sure if it's because, once again, I feel like I've gone nowhere with my writing career, or because I've been dealing with exhausting family issues recently. Maybe it's both.
I've been thinking lately about what I want 2026 to look like for myself. I mentioned previously that what I'm most looking forward to this year is Chinese media: C-dramas, Phantom Blade 0 releasing in September, and the continual updates for Where Winds Meet. I hate how my writing has perpetually been in limbo/at a dead end; I feel like I need to try one more Bindery open submission period before I can self-publish Novel #5, but that means I'll likely be waiting until June 2026 (hopefully not much later than that). Otherwise, a combination of publishing industry fatigue and lack of interest in the books being published right now means I've been very unmotivated and uninspired when it comes to writing. I haven't even been able to muster the energy to edit Novel #4, because I don't want to query again, to be honest. It just doesn't feel like there's any point.
If I do self-publish Novel #5—which is looking more and more likely—the second half of the year would mostly involve commissioning cover art, doing the ebook/print layout, and marketing. The book's done, obviously, and I probably wouldn't do any major edits at this stage. Otherwise, I guess it's probably a good time to turn my attention to other things - namely, as I said in my previous entry, health and dating - even if those things aren't "fun". Sigh.
I've been thinking lately about what I want 2026 to look like for myself. I mentioned previously that what I'm most looking forward to this year is Chinese media: C-dramas, Phantom Blade 0 releasing in September, and the continual updates for Where Winds Meet. I hate how my writing has perpetually been in limbo/at a dead end; I feel like I need to try one more Bindery open submission period before I can self-publish Novel #5, but that means I'll likely be waiting until June 2026 (hopefully not much later than that). Otherwise, a combination of publishing industry fatigue and lack of interest in the books being published right now means I've been very unmotivated and uninspired when it comes to writing. I haven't even been able to muster the energy to edit Novel #4, because I don't want to query again, to be honest. It just doesn't feel like there's any point.
If I do self-publish Novel #5—which is looking more and more likely—the second half of the year would mostly involve commissioning cover art, doing the ebook/print layout, and marketing. The book's done, obviously, and I probably wouldn't do any major edits at this stage. Otherwise, I guess it's probably a good time to turn my attention to other things - namely, as I said in my previous entry, health and dating - even if those things aren't "fun". Sigh.
