rainwaterspark | I submitted my first ever agent queries!

Since social interactions (even over email) have been more difficult and painful for me as of late, due to autistic burnout, I've been seesawing between excitement, anxiety, and gloom over the querying process. It's been really exhausting.

Part of the anxiety comes from the fact that I feel like I'm being evaluated, but part of it also comes from the fact that Project E is such a personal project that's close to my heart, and in the wake of sending those queries I suddenly feel like, "Wait, I don't know if I'm ready yet for my personal project to be seen by the world!"

Also, I've previously mentioned that I suffered an episode of depression over the (relative) lack of attention to my fanfiction on AO3, and I'm kind of terrified that rejection of my original fiction will lead to depression again. Which I really do not need while I'm trying to keep my head above the water for my last year of law school.

Anyway...now that I've sent the queries out, there's nothing to do but wait and see, I guess.